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heres where I share my writings. It's bad, but I enjoy it! I started writing poetry in the 6th grade so I could get emotions out that I couldn't with just drawing or painting. Sometimes, I just have to say it, not show it, you get? Anyways, it helped me a lot. Not just poetry, but writing in general. You know, I think I'm way better at writing on its own instead of poetry, but I can make any art I want either way.
I don't know, but hopefully you understand what I mean. I don't fully like making my poems about specific stories, I think poetry can be whatever, and so can writing. So I suppose my poetry is bad either way, whatever.

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Writings and Poetry

********. I remember a boy at the after school program I went to. I thought he was kind of ugly when I first met him. He was very, very pale. He had red hair, glasses, a scrawny but strong build, and was taller than me. He played bass and saxophone very well, the best bassist I've ever been friends with. Though, he didn't think of me as a friend for months. I remember when I had my first homeroom class on the second week of school. I tried to stay next to him because he was the only person in that room that I knew at the time. My teacher made me and him sit next to each other, thankfully. I sat infront while he was behind. I would talk to him, and sometimes my teacher would yell my name so I would stop. I enjoyed talking to him, being around him in general made me happy. He had an aura that was comforting. Before I knew it, he would be gone. The boy I never thought would leave, would leave out of state. When I found out, I wanted to cry. I remembered all the times I spent with him, when I would wave and he'd wave back so sweetly. I painted him a bass on a maroon background, and gave it to him on the last Monday. What hurt me was the fact he never told me. I found out through my rock band coach, the one who was the whole reason I even talked to such a boy. He told me himself that maroon was his favorite color, now I keep dark red shirts because I figure he'd like them. I play bass because he played it. I remember when I told him he could look at the back of the painting after school, when we were alone together in that tiny space. He was going to put it away before I stopped to ask what he thought about it. He told me he appreciated it. He left it on his desk at home. I looked up to him, and I continue to. I took him for granted, and I hate the fact I did so. If I could, I'd go back in time to be with him. I would draw for him and he would never give me a "thank you." He never told me he missed me or that he ever even liked me. He probably just felt obligated to talk to me. He is the only person I've ever truly cared about, and I hope he'll always be safe. I just want for him to at least appreciate me. The same way I feel for him.
Goodbye, ********. I hardly knew you.
I Knew a Girl Who Didn't Exist. I knew a girl who didn't exist.
She had a short bob haircut, like an upside down bowl on her head, and she was a few years older than me. She was a sister to me, it’s kind of difficult to explain why. And I remember when I walked into her classroom with her when I was in kindergarten and she was in either 3rd or 4th grade. I was nervous, but she wanted me to stay safe around the older kids. She came to my house once for a play date, and we drew each other. I can’t recall just how she drew me, but I know I gave her a wide, happy smile. She lived in a yellowish color house with a tree in front of it. At that time, she might as well have been a tree for her height compared to mine. She reminds me of those old children’s books with the sort of sarcastic, relatable main character, and the smell of old, yellowing pages of an old chapter book— or maybe something similar to an old melody. I don’t know what happened to her, but she is very deep in my heart. I wish I could see her again, but I’m a bit frightened as well. She could be so, so much different from who she used to be, and the thought kind of scares me. If I do get to see her once more, long in the future, maybe 15 years from today,
I think something in me would feel complete again.
Bucket Lunch Everyday at school, my teacher makes me empty my bucket after lunch
So I tell her, "Eat my bucket lunch."
"I can't focus in class anymore
I'm always in mourn
I don't get enough sleep
I'm forced to attend meet and greets
My bass is messed
I can't feel my chest
My pills make me gag
I need to take the smokes out my bag
My delusions are getting worse
I always visit the nurse
I'm so sick of trying
I feel like dying."
And she yells at me instead of aiding
She’s just faking.
A Meaning I’ll take to the Grave.
There’s something special about a song
That suddenly stops but never ends
There’s something blue about a melody
That takes awhile to put a cleanse.
Where the music comes to start,
But never truly leaves a mark
At least not anymore,
As seen by the new shores
That we throw garbage and trash away
While they are similar, they aren’t to mash anyways.
And that’s a meaning I’ll take to the grave.

The birds outside fly overhead
Throughout the night, the flies never leave my bed
That those things I see aren’t fair,
But nobody ever cares.
We see the world as nothing new,
Just repeated delusions with nothing to lose
At least not anymore
As we’ve seen so many times while dragging chores
That they give up so easily
While there’s hardly a difference in people, we ridicule anyways
And that’s a meaning I’ll take to the grave.

People must understand
That the people who run it are as terrible as the land
The planets of Venus, Neptune and Mars
We aren’t going to make it too far.
So there’s a star beyond the universe who asks,
“Who’s going to make the last dance?”,
Song and melody
And rhythm and remedie.
So whatever, we whatever anyways
And persevere through the hardest days
Rotting food and meat
While they force us to beat
Each other up and die
Dominating the world we see and lie,
But apparently, it doesn’t matter anyways
And that’s a meaning I’ll take to the grave.
Sketchy Sunny
It’ll work out in the end
Don’t put yourself at a bend
Don’t let me down
Keep your feet on the ground
You’ve gotten so far,
So remember to let yourself free
Sketchy Sunny, set your mind to me.

Everything will be alright in the end
Don’t let it put you down
Get rid of everything that’ll make you frown
Follow your dreams
And remember you’ll always be with me
Sketchy Sunny, let your kind be free.

And if you ever see it won’t follow through
The pattern you wanted was on the loose
That you’re so tired you can’t even follow your dreams
Nor get out of bed, what’s deemed to be
Remember that you’ll be in someone’s heart
Sketchy Sunny, don’t let it rip you apart.

Devastation and The Unnatural Melancholy
Devastation…
The world will never understand
That we are all part of man
That women should be equal with men
And it shouldn’t matter where you stand.

Melancholy…
Where we begin and where we were before
To see how she feels on this unforgiving shore
That she is ready to drown, ready to die
Who’s going to save her and give her their time?…

Devastation and The Unnatural Melancholy
Give me life, give me strength
Give me everything that isn’t annoying my face
My tortured heart, my beating soul
The world’s spins out of control.
Devastation and the unnatural melancholy
The cure to my sickness is only a mile away
But the splitters still reclaim
The medicine for melancholy, the devastation that remains
Restoration and The Natural Jolly…
Devastation and The Unnatural Melancholy.

The Girl Past The Sidewalk
There's black sludge on the ceiling
Ants all over the bathroom sink and floor
And mold that starts to succeed and thrive as a colony even more.
But there's a girl past the sidewalk
Living in a home that is worse
That gives me hope, I'm not alone in this curse.
The girl past the sidewalk smokes as she looks forward
Lower as she stares at me.

There's hornets in the garage of my deteriorating home
Pipes that leak evolving sludge over the garden gnomes
There's rotten food that is only close to a biohazard
And glass all over the floor, shattered.
But the girl across the street persist
That her home is better than this
And the boys giggle and cover their noses when they pass her shack
That's less of a home than a nick nack.
A shack that produces more of a foul oder than a blood soaked needle
Which forms crystals, garlic that disturbs the people
And more of a biohazard that is likely to be left behind
It's a whole great disaster that's getting worse with time.
Disease written rats and flies
Thicker than the smell that will only rise
But the girl past the sidewalk still insist
That my home is a marvel compared to what she persists.

To Believe I Told Schizo Guy What I Thought That Day.
Call him “Schizo Guy”
I’m sure that’s what he wants to hear
Day in and day out
Taking shots of beer
Schizo Guy, ‘O Schizo Guy
Going to bed while shedding tears
The people talking to you in your ear
Making fun of your delusional thinking
Believing they are beyond your drinking
Schizo Guy, ‘O Schizo Guy
The girl of your dreams, you have to meet
Leaving you for an ugly man
Laying on a blood soaked mattress is the least bad thing for you this week
“Maybe trying tomorrow wouldn’t be so bad"
“If only you wouldn’t get so mad”
Schizo Guy, ‘O Schizo Guy
Don’t let them put you down
Tell the voices to quiet down
Tell the shadows they are no longer a bore
Tell the girl of your dreams you love her way more
Even if your condition might only get worse
Try to make the best of this curse
Schizo Guy, ‘O Schizo Guy
Try your best for your own sake
“How much time will it take?”
Only you can understand him
Maybe you might win
Schizo Guy, ‘O Schizo Guy
And maybe it’ll be the only sane thing to live by.

Have You Seen This Star?
Have you seen a star,
Small but brighter than anything in our known mass
A star stronger than man?
Have you seen this star?
Closer to Jupiter than Mars
Unlike my own from his to mine
This star is divine!
Have you seen a star?
I bet you have
But was it that one in particular?
Eventually, it'll break down.
With its super nova power crown
Radiation kills us all
And I'm ready for my naked body to be baked
Like fresh pies and cake
Have you seen this star?
It'll live on forever, at least in our minds
It was eternal, but decreased with time.
Still left a mark on our world
It's barely being heard.
Top to bottom of the hierarchy of hext
It's ready for the blackhole next.

a4b4, 9604
I remember back when she died
I felt nothing at all, nothing inside
My brain melted, rotting with flies
Who eat my skinny body while I cry, countless of tries.

I remember back when I cried
Only guy who bothered to keep me alive
You could've said "yes", you could've lied
And maybe if you did, I would've gaven life a second try.

(I remember how you used to talk
When singing new literature at the tree stock
As he followed me around and stalked
All I wanted to do was simply walk.)

I'll remember the feeling of the crime scene place
Either calm or bloodied, with the same tired face
You'll decide to seel up my lazy remains
As I continue to decay until my body breaks.
Oregon Guy
Bye, Bye
Mr. Oregon Guy
Who showed we will connect in times of dread
Who lead us to victory in moments of wanting to go to bed
Hi, Hi
Mr. Oregon Guy
You sparkle and shine
You never committed a crime
Morning, Morning
Mr. Oregon, we’re mourning
We are in a state of sadness and war
We are in a world of pain and other painful mores
So today’s the day the world dies,
Goodbye, Goodbye
Mr. Oregon Guy.
"People You May Know."
You showed up on my "People You May Know"
But you died long ago
Back in late October, 1989
We didn't even have such technology at the time
I friended you, said "Hi"
But it was just a simple lie
It was just another figment of my imagination
If you're reading this, I remember when you were struck in the head
I was just hallucinating your presence once again.
Valentine's Day.
Every year there's a special day
Where two come together and try to become one
Where the embarrassed try to run...
Where I can't see you at school anymore
So I left you a message on my telephone, hoping you'll answer the door
Wanting to be your valentine...
At first you were nice
But indifferent to the idea of being mine
But whatever, maybe I'll give next year a try
Maybe after a couple of years and some time
You'll finally want to be my Valentine.
Leeches on my Wall.
I've survived countless attempts to get these damn things off
The leeches, the leeches on my wall.
They appear when I'm alone and afraid
Slowly climbing to show that it's their domain
They suck all my blood out my skin
Until I'm limp and dyingly slim...
Slender, barely even tall
I keep saying, "Now's the time to get these leeches off my wall."
Once I get rid of those leeches that take my blood
I can finally rest after the job is done
Expect I couldn't, once their gone my vision fades
Maybe they took too much blood?
Maybe I failed to leave them outside in the mud...
So in the darkness of night I cry
But at least the leeches are gone, gone with time.
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explanations

"********."

It's based on some guy I knew. That's all.

"I Knew a Girl Who Didn't Exist."

This one isn't based on anything, it's exactly what I recall. I asked my mom about it years later, and she didn't even know who I was talking about. I assumed I dreamt it all or was creating stories in my head that then evolved into me thinking they were real.

"Bucket Lunch"

She didn't eat my bucket lunch, sadly.

"A Meaning I'll take to the Grave."

I'd like to say that the true meaning is how I feel towards things even as simple as music. That people will throw away art for whatevers in style and that is how the internet and people just are. They get bored quickly. But that doesn't mean we should throw away such beautiful things that people put thought into.
Otherwise, the world is always in destruction, and we allow this to happen. People say they are tired of the government and world powers, yet do nothing at all to stop it. Therefore, if we let them thrive, things will most likely only get worse. Which we shouldn't let happen. I find it disgusting. People also say they are tired of stigmas and sterotypes, which is understandable. Yet for some reason people still give into them, which is also disgusting. I mean, nobody of any race, ethnicity, gender, sex, disability or illness should be classified by sterotypes and stigmas.

"Sketchy Sunny"

It is for people in a bad mood, or people in struggle. Obviously a simple poem isn't going to change someones mindset, but I wish to at least make anybody feel better. I'm not exactly sure what a "Sketchy Sunny" actually is, but I like to think of it as the sun in a drawing. Like in a sketch, not fully colored in and it is up to you to color it in. That's what I think of it at least.
I also got the name from the manga Hidamari Sketch.


"Devastation and the Unnatural Melancholy"

Originally titled "Desolation and the Unnatural Melancholy."
The meaning of this is up to interpretation because I honestly have no idea. I just came up with it. All I can say is that it is devastating, unnatural and melancholic.

"The Girl Past The Sidewalk"

I've seen many youtube videos on biohazards, rotting things and people in struggle. I watch them because I find them interesting, and also because it lets me see what some people have to go through everyday. Some people struggle to the point of not being able to clean the space around them, hence this poem was created. I felt bad for those people, and they deserve better. At least a liveable area is the bare minimum.
I don't understand what the girl past the sidewalk is actually insisting because I go back and forth on it. That her home is a marble, but so is the speakers as well. Neither of them have liveable, cozy spaces to rest neither are actually "marbles." But at least they understand each others situation, sadly.

"To Believe I Told Schizo Guy What I Thought That Day."

The title of this poem is inspired by the Dr. Seuss book, "To Think I Saw it on Mulberry Street", as well as the song "Goodbye, Mr. Schizo".
I used to get called a "schizo" a lot when I was younger because of my delusions, hallucinations and bizarre way of acting and thinking. I've grown to hate the word because of this, as well as the fact it is downright evil.
Like "Oregon Guy", there is no Schizo Guy. I made him up, but he is kind of a representation of myself. At the end of the poem, it shows how I've grown to try and not let this illness ruin my life, and the lives of the people around me. I have to accept the fact I may not get better, but I can hope and pray for this illness to (somehow, in someway) go away.

"Have You Seen This Star?"

This is the only poem I've actually been kind of proud of.
The star represents special people I've met in my life. All of them have left me in some way, sadly, as seen in "It's ready for the blackhole next."
"Closer to jupiter than mars," since I find outer planets more interesting than inner planets in our solar system, this "star" is interesting to me as well.
We have all met someone significant in some way, therefore we have all seen a star. "But was it that one in particular?" shows the people I personally see as special. Eventually, I will slowly forget about this particular "star", so it goes from the top to the bottom of my thoughts.
"Eventually, it'll break down. With its super nova power crown, radiation kills us all. And I'm ready for my naked body to be baked like fresh pies and cake." similar to "It's ready for the blackhole next," both show that this person will slowly leave. I have experienced this a lot that in the end, I am already ready for the overwhelming sadness.

"a4b4, 9604"

Pronounced "a-four b-four, nine-six-zero-four", the poem is closely related to themes of suicide. Talking about the speakers room being a crime scene once they've killed themself, and how their body will decay quickly with time. The main reason this person has decided to do this is because of some form of rejection. If whatever or whoever rejected them lied by saying yes or anything other than no, by hiding their or its feelings, this person wouldn't have done gone down this path. In a way, the speaker is selfish for wanting to be rewarded or accepted instead of rejected, but that's what I think.
The name "a4b4, 9604" has nothing to do with the poem. I really didn't know how to title this one, so that's the name I ended up with.

"Oregon Guy"

There is no "Oregon guy", they are whoever you think they are.
I had American Pie stuck in my head, so that's how I came up with the name Oregon Guy. It was originally titled "Oregon Boy/Mr. Oregon Boy", but I thought "guy" was easier to rhyme with.

"'People You May Know'"

On multiple social media, there is a little box saying "People you may know" that shows multiple peoples profiles that, well, you may or may not know. Mostly shown through connected mutuals.
What inspired this poem was the amount of dead people who's internet profiles are still up. Those people may show up on your "People you may know", even if they're long gone.

"Valentine's Day"

I think it's pretty obvious what this is talking about, so no futher depth is needed.

"Leeches on my Wall."

"Leeches on my Wall" is a metaphor for struggles to the point of suicide. Your hardships will make you weaker and weaker until you give up completely. In the end, the leeches are gone, but that's it.
Leeches being on a wall would mean that your problems consume you until you give up.
/This poem isn't meant to encourage self-harm or suicide./